Can’t think, can’t breathe
I’m up against a wall
I don’t know what to do, where to turn
I don’t know how I’ll make through another day
I’ve read of other people
who come to the point where they just don’t know anymore
the very thought of the next day brings only dread and fear.
I never really thought it would be me. And yet…now.
You say You’ll be with me…I want to believe!
Sometimes its so hard to feel Your presence, Your love
I try to constantly know that You’re with me
But sometimes its so hard
Yet time and time again You show me that You love me
The little things You put in my life to help me get through when I forget to turn to You
You hold out Your hand and gently call me toward you
And I take Your hand, if only for a little while
Then I slip and I forget
And I retreat into myself to just try to be ok
Despair. Loss. Terror.
Trying to hide in myself. Again.
And yet I will praise You
I will love You
You will get me through this storm
Even though it seems too much for my frail self
Your love will overtake my soul again
Sweetly overwhelming me in the realization
that You love me so much more than I could ever fully imagine
You are enough. You can be my everything.
I’ve tried everything I know
I’ve worn every mask I have
But the weight is too much
I can’t make it anymore
Can’t see my way to tomorrow
This heavy cloud of despondence pulls on my heart
I don’t know how to keep going
Lord, help me. I can’t do it anymore
Help me see that You are the Light, the Strength
You are the Rock that I can fall on
Help me to know that when I fall down to You
You’ll lift me up so I can fly
You promise to fulfill Your purpose in me
You’re changing me and shaping me to be more like You
Teaching me to find hope in You
No matter what
Even when I doubt, even when I fail
You understand because You love me
You are the Unchanging One
And You will remain unchanged for me.
